♡ 18-05-90 ♡ First of all, I want to thank you for being who you are, you never changed, you always cared about fashion and music, both with the same passion, you never stopped being that honest girl women even if a lot of people mistook it as arrogant or rude, you actually made fun of it, saying that the first thingy people would say about you was “she’s rude”, but us 4NIAS, know that deep deep inside there’s a nice girl, that cares about everyone and only wants the best for 4MINUTE and 4NIAS. I hope you have a great day, Happy birthday Heo Gayoon ♥

This is one of the questions I often get from interviewers as of the two interviews I’ve been with. 

My general answer would be:

“I took up Psychology because I want to learn about human behavior. I want to know the reasons behind their actions. I want to understand where are their behaviors coming from.”

It sounds okay. Well, for me, at least. But I can feel something’s lacking. For some reason, there’s no essence or passion or something that naturally and effortlessly came from the heart. It was just plain words and phrases to utter in front of an interviewer who needs an answer and words and phrases to utter of an applicant desperately wanting to get a job once and for all.  

But, maybe certainly, there are reasons behind taking up and being on that course.  And, it has always been my mantra ever since I came to know and realize that I wasn’t fully engaged with studying Psychology. Sure, it was fun learning about people’s behavior and understanding that all attitudes and behavior came from something. But, it was not satisfying or fulfilling. It was just ‘okay’. My grades will tell you so, if you could see it. I will always have that tres mark on some of my majors, and never an uno (well, except for OJTs which is not ).  Thinking that some of my blockmates are not into this course also makes me feel comfortable/at home with these dudes and gals with same dilemma as I do. 

And when I said reasons, I may not know all of them, but for sure I knew one thing: meeting awesome persons that will always be part of me, of who I am now, of my heart. Persons who believed in me; persons who made me laugh and cry; persons I shared my obsession and happiness with; persons who knew me better than I do; persons who helped me get through all those years; persons who kept me sane; persons I shared my secret with (and so did they); persons who educated me a thing or two about life; persons who taught me lessons beyond the barriers of classrooms; persons who shared me some words of wisdom; persons who assured me it’s gonna be okay when I needed it the most; persons who tried to understand me and who understood me; persons who clearly survived my crazy and quite moody nature; persons who love me (and whom I love, always will) in spite and despite all the challenges, joys, heartaches, through good and bad vibes.

You know who you are peeps. :) Specially, when you, of all friends I have, know that I have this Tumblr blog. (Specially you three! :p You A, A, and ate E) When you’re reading this long post, (wow, you’re pretty curious! and you really did read ah! HAHA!) I want to thank you, for wasting your time reading this, for wasting your time on me, for knowing (and/or reading) my pity life’s story. 

I am and always will be thankful to the Almighty One for giving me people like you, specially like you. I may not always say it, I may not always show it, I may not be expressive about it, but ILOVEYOUFRIENDS. :D

*nyao, lalim eh noh, tinanong lang naman kung bakit Psych ang napiling course HAHAHAHAHAHA*

To the intelligent; to the beautiful; to the kindest; to the talented; to the sexy; to the creative; to the passionate; to the dreamer; to the doer; to the clever; to the imaginative; to someone who’s got ear for good music; to the dancer; to the singer; to the writer; to someone who’s into sports; to the career-woman; to someone who’s good in cooking and/or baking…

To those women who’s perfect and to those who’s not perfect but made up their minds to pursue greater things, I will never win, because I’m neither.

fuckyeahfashioncouture:

Rami Kadi Haute Couture Spring 2013

One of those dream gowns…because I never got to wear one. Ever.

Went to that place where B.A.P. shot their One Shot MV.

Even when I depart this world, there would be memories that would always be with me; memories I shared with people who had taken a part here in my heart.

You know who you are, peeps, reading this or not. ;) I always say this often or sometimes not at all but… ILOVEYOU ALL. <3

Let’s make more ‘inseparable memories’, ayt?

I don’t know if it’s just the weather or me, but I’m still not really in the mood of finding a job. 

Aaahhh, I have no words for this. With you…I truly, madly, really…CANNOT.

I want to do this to you too. And yes, I’m serious about this. And yes, in my dreams…hopefully.

That look in your eyes…